On Dating...
I am asked quite a bit "Do you date?" When I answer "No, I don't." my answer gets such weird responses. Some have outright called me a liar (why would I need to lie about that?), others are incredulous and start asking me personal questions; to the point of embarrassment! My sexual orientation has been questioned, I have been told I am "Too Alpha" and most men can't handle,won't like or tolerate this. Who knew?! Why are people so amazed that there is a single woman that chooses not to date? Am I such an anomaly? My ego would love to believe that I am something special, a puzzle to figure out; but I know better. I believe that there are a lot of women AND men like me: Just enjoying my space, my time, my own company. It really isn't complicated. My last relationship was a serious thing, a force to be reckoned with. All hearts and emotion and we are going to get married talk...then the implosion, explosion and all the other "plosions" you can think of. Silly and careless with each others hearts, ungrateful for what we had, throwing words like rocks, immature. That was two years ago, and I made the decision to regroup. I made the decision to not date, because it would have been a waste of the other persons time. I needed to get over and face some things about me, hence "ME" time. My Mama had a saying: "You can be alone, and not be lonely." and I have found this to be true. It takes work though, and there were some days I wasn't feeling it, but I got through. So, what happened to my Beloved after we exploded? He got married four months later, not to me. OUCH!!! :) Crap! That was painful, WAS being the key word here. I learned to wish him well, so that I can be well. I wished him love, so that I can be and give love. I forgave, so that I could be forgiven. Peace, Love and more peace.
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