We Deserve

There isn't anything that will make you love life like a health scare. I say this with levity, because life is short and we must laugh...even when it is somewhat serious. These past months I have been on a mission to go to all of my Dr.'s appointments, from the Ear, Nose and Throat, to the Gynecologist, nothing will be missed. I am pretty good about going to the Gyne, I'm not one of these women who choose to ignore their vagina and the parts attached to it; so I go. Well, to be honest, I thought all of my tests, mammogram included, would come back wonderful. "Nothing to see here Ms. Morris!" the Dr. would say. "Your body is just as boring and healthy as can be. Go! run free." That wasn't the case this time. "Dawn, you have a suspicious mass and abnormal cells in your pap."We(who is we?) want you to see another Dr. that specializes in gynecological issues." I couldn't help it, when they called the mass 'suspicious' I got a visual of a lump with dark glasses and a trench coat living in my breast. Abnormal cells? What about them makes them abnormal? Should they be in a special class? Will they forever be labeled abnormal? Okay, this is my sick sense of humor and another way for me to deal with fear. Yes! This Woman was scared and where there is fear, there is room for more sickness. I sat in my bedroom that day and really thought about what was going on in my life. When you find that you are having issues with your body, issues that you have never had before; check where your head is at. If it is up your ass, then there lies the problem! And mine was definitely up my posterior. If you are a reader of my blogs then you know my belief in the Mind/Body connection. How negative thoughts,beliefs and environments can and will manifest into bad health for you. Being around negative people, listening or watching negative things on the television or radio, putting bad things into your body, basically not taking care of your whole self; mind and body.  So, as I was sitting in my bedroom and thought some more and came to the conclusion that all that I thought was important, isn't. My health is paramount to everything else and things are about to change, because the mess just got real. I took the diagnosis given to me by those Dr's( with respect and gratitude)and went to a Dr. of Holistic healing. Remember, this is my journey. I am not encouraging anyone to do what I am doing. We must all follow what we deem is right for us. After a two hour consultation and game plan typed out, I have been put on a regiment of herbs and vitamins. My diet has been changed tremendously(I thought I was healthy!) so much so that I have dropped 10 lbs. The biggest change has been the people I allow into my life now. The people I have had to let go and the changes I have had to do with my own thought patterns. Just when I thought I had evolved(aaahhh, the arrogance!) I realized the evolution was still going on, at my age! I have surrounded myself with happiness. I don't engage in debates or arguments anymore. Why? Because none of it matters. Why? Dawn, why?! Because at the end of the day, people are going to believe and do what they want. You and I are in charge of our own bodies and minds. I control no one but me. Stress kills. Stress, strife and whatever other S word you want to insert, will make you miserable and misery will make you ill. I have surrounded myself with Joy. Why? Because when you are joyful, everyday you will wake up with gratitude. I have surrounded myself with Love. Why? Because I deserve love, as we all do. And that is what I am wishing you: Love and Peace, but mostly and most deservedly, Love. :)